Have you ever read my blog ? Do you know how i feel bout you ? Is this the way you are treating me after all we've been through ? All i'm asking for is just a lunch session with you. Is it that hard ? Am i not worthy than your friends ? Are you finding me a nuisance ? I don wanna pressure you, i never did ! I remember clearly you wrote to me saying that our relationship although wasn't the same as normal couples, but we are matured and steadfast enough to keep this relationship going. That it will remain strong. It never mattered to me that we don meet as often. cause i know deep down in your heart, i'm still there! Thats why i don mind. Do you remember what you wrote in chinese on my birthday card ? i never told you this, but i'm tell you now. It caused me to have tears in my eyes that day and every time i read it. I don know why that happens, somehow it just did. Yet all this happened ? December seemed okay( the party and everything), january wasn't as bad. February was when everything just collapsed. I thought after your Os, we'll get back together even stronger. But seems like i'm wrong. i don know what caused such a dramatic change in you. Shouldn't the pressure make you wanna have someone to lean on ? Instead of breaking up ? Is it that your friends are doing so, giving you all the sense of security, making you feel that i'm not needed anymore. I've asked myself if there was anything i've done wrong in anyway. Perhaps i'm just too stupid to realized. But don't i deserve a second chance ? Is it the guilt of not being able to be there for me and all the disappointment you gave me, the reasons for breaking up ? You don have to. i never complained. i'm willing, the unconditional love. if you think its unfair not being able to be there for me! you are being more unfair right now. breaking up with me.
Have you watched World Trade Center the movie ? i did. It made me realize how short life could be. that you could be there this moment and gone the next. Just with a snap of the finger. it will happen so fast that i'll have no time to react. That is when reality hit me square on the face. Making me realize how important you were to me and i wanna be by you side no matter what the problem is, and we'll face it together. I LOVE YOU really much. Seriously speaking, i never knew i loved you that much until the day you wanted the recess. You are a part of me already. You can say i'm being all emotional, but its how i really feel about you. Nothing is important to me now; than you. You can tell me to concentrate on my studies. Yes i will. BUT my mind can do that, my heart can't. Do you really have no feelings for me already ? Is somethings still not right ? Is it totally over ? Or is it another guy ?? However i believe you won't break up with me over another guy. You won't do such a thing to me. Or have you already done so ? Through and through, you are my one and only !! I'll be sitting on that fence waiting for you to come back. I'm just a fool, perhaps, wanting for your love.
-never will another gal like you come by
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