Grand-uncle passed on yesterday afternoon.
I didn't feel anything when i was first told of the news nor while i was working. It didn't really hit me till now, when i just got back home from work and finally had the time to pause and think. Although it is nearly 2 in the morning and after a day of hard work, your brain will usually shut down. Somehow, this moment, i feel more awake then i should be.
As it saddens me to know that my grand uncle has passed on, when nearly 6 months ago on my visit up north, he was still looking healthy. He was able to seat in the hall and chat with us, even managed to have some cookies we brought for him.
Though it might be a good thing for him, as his health started to take a turn in my visited in april. All this while he's been suffering from Alzheimer (which worsen). It really hurts to know that, there you are looking and calling out at him, while wanting nothing more then an acknowledgement of who you are.
It has also been a painful road for my grand aunt, who has been by his side all this while, yet he doesn't recognize anyone not even her. Moreover, he had gotten bedridden, couldn't even have the strength to seat upright by himself.
My grand uncle was a great man, who has managed to see generations becoming successful. He left a legacy, living through world war II, making it out alive, becoming a successful businessman. He never once spend lavishly nor has he been a showoff. He has always been prudent all his life. For that, i respect him.
His passing, taught me the value of life and the meaning of love.
Life is short, live it to the fullest and never simply take things for granted, your life might just take a sharp turn when you least expected it. He loved only one woman all his life, cherished her as though she is part of him. And she's been there for him through out his illness, never once complained that he would hit her out of the blue which was cause by the illness.
When you love someone, love whole heartedly. Half hearted will only bring you more pain and regrets. When you truly love someone, you will want that person to change for the better, you'll stay through thick and thin to see the change and make it together.
If i was to be given the chance to love again. I promise i will give it my all, my everything. Never will i be that self-centered male chauvinist, who will only take. I will give more, be more understanding, be more open and most importantly i will look in the future and plan it together.
RIP Grand Uncle, for your memories will always be left not only in our minds but our heart and soul.
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