Monday, 30 May 2011

10:53:00 pm

4 days of RSAF open house has come and gone. Was it worth it ? Probably. As it might be a once in a life time event to be part of, for me at least. Well, the most take away experience i have is the fact that some officers are most down to earth. They do not order you around instead work harder then you to get things done. Never once asked me to do and simply rest. For that i respect them. They truly took me as friend that they work along side.

Apart from that, i was surprise i was hit on; the first day of the open house, being an ambassador, guiding 2 class of students around. Why would i think of it that way. There was a survey form that the students were suppose to complete when nearing the end of the tour. There was these girl who completed her form and handed to me, and insisted that i read the survey. Which had a portion about the ambassador, she added a line 'he's awesome'. Yes.. There really isn't a need to do it. Oh, she asked if i knew her name (of course i don, 65 students, how to remember?). She then insisted that i had to remember her name.. She was a nice girl, even asked if i will be around on sun, cause she will bring her family along. Thankfully, i was to do some other stuffs that day. So i told her i wouldn't be around. She seemed alittle sad, but oh wells. Some other guy would be better for her eh.

My heart has been taken.

12:01:00 pm

Monday, 9 May 2011

10:10:00 am

Friday, 6 May 2011

Showing people what i have to show.

I keep to myself, and take it through every night, living one day at the time. Not knowing what tomorrow might bring.

If pain is something i have to go through because of my ignorance and simply 'heck care-ness' and my stubbornness, i'll take it, i'll live with it.

I have realised that the self-centered, egoistic me has brought simply nothing but pain and sadness. Everything i saw was shallow. Never considered and thought of the one who has always been there for me. Forever taking things for granted.

If i could turn back time, i would cherish every single moment, and i will shower her with all the love she should get.

Why did things have to turn out this way ?

8:43:00 pm

Monday, 2 May 2011

I never really expect missing a person you dearly love can be so fucking painful, it cuts into your heart so deep, that you are left with nothing.

When you live with regrets that you should have simply cherished her in the first place. That it need not have come to this stage to know how much she stands in your heart. How much she really means everything to you. It seems like she is the moon to your night which has been cold ever since she left.

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7:56:00 pm

About me

Hi all ! Its me, jAve. My full name is Javier lee shun kiat, im 22 this year Im a really happy go lucky guy. People have told me, Im just pretty much good-average looking, i studied in Temasek secondary. Ive got some loving friends, here are some : Tong ann, Squid, lexter, ivan chan. Ive got many more friends, its just too many to be included but if ur really interested we could be frens. I use to play softball in school for my CCA, and Basketball as leisure with ma pals. i wouldn't mind havin lots more new friends. So feel free to add me! Check them out at my friendster, im also on Msn messenger. Heres my email, lee_javier@hotmail.com! Special thanks-ivan who helped editing.

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