Tuesday, 29 April 2008
Finally after 3 years and slightly more. My braces are fully off. I can't help but think of all the fond memories. I wish you would be the 1st to see my braces off with nothing but my bare teeth. But i know its no longer possible. Meeting you now seems as if i'm trying to meet a boss of some huge company. As my dentist is removing my braces, i can't help but remember what you've asked "How would kissing be like for both of us to be without braces on." Guess it wont happen either. Well at least it won't be me anymore. Right ? Right now, I'm trying to embrace the fact that things i wish will happen my way, won't be happening my way. I'm trying to put all my thoughts and trouble into a bottle and throwing it into the sea. Your answer, i would have guessed. I'm not hope i'm deluding myself. Labels: Braces and embraces
3:39:00 pm
Monday, 28 April 2008
It was my second time donating blood. Well it wasn't as bad. This time i manage to pull some friends along. The needle is still forever so intriguing. The thickness of it its about the same as a yakault straw. This time my blood manage to flood faster than last sem. Guess i've drank enough water this time round. The other time the nurse told me i didn't drink enough water before the donation. As my blood was very thick. There was a period where it didn't want to flow. She had to kinda move the need as its in my flesh. Though not painful.. Still it feels real weird. Thank god she didn't have to do it this time round. So i've got my second cert as a 'life saver' OH and i manage to get the dinosaur bandage. haha.....Labels: blood drive
11:53:00 pm
Tuesday, 22 April 2008
Suddenly, this loneliness is creeping in on me. Everything around seem to have come to a stand still. My life has been painfully rearranged, not in a way i would like it. Could you come up with an answer ? Could you just step up and let me know ? I can't help but miss you time and again. It fluctuates, one day i can simply not feel anything, not regarding everything and we don sms doesn't seem to matter. The next i'll just go crazy missing you, hoping you are doing fine. Would simply wanna see you, hear your voice, or simply receiving a sms from you. It seems like you are my everything, my life belongs to you. I don know how i don know why. HELP !!!Labels: Confused and pain
5:18:00 pm
Sunday, 20 April 2008
Yesterday has been tiring day. Woke up at six in the morning, had to prepare for work at bout 8.30 at STC. It was really a fun filled mind-less day, work till 5.30 pm. headed to school to play floorball. By the time i reach school its already 7 pm. man i suck badly, guess its long since i play. Must train hard, forget about all other stuffs, make it into school team, win back gold medal ! Played till 9pm. headed home.I've gotta say it was amazing at STC, tong's friends were interesting. Real interesting i've got to say. Don mind meeting them again. Well if ever all my days were like that. How nice would it be. The only thing i don like was the primary school there. Bring back bad memories.Someday you'll realised and come back-
Labels: walking
11:44:00 pm
Sunday, 13 April 2008
Finally the holidays are over. Back to reality, somehow..
Its gonna be hell, with days starting as early as eight in the morning and ending with lessons finishing at nine thirty in the night. People say year 2 is the toughest year. So here goes nothing..
The lovely face, that friendly smile
was seen walking down that aisle.
Turning back to realise its all but a frown.
Wondering how could it be,
when for so long its been around.
Sooner than realised,
it never was never meant to be.
But somehow i couldn't realise what a fool i've be.
Just hopelessly waiting for you..
Its just round the corner. 26th april
Labels: Deep emotions
9:52:00 pm
Saturday, 12 April 2008
Waking up, finally sober. I think i'm getting a hang over.School's starting, A brand new year. A brand new semester. But the same old me, same old feelings, thoughts that never changed. Hopefully, i'll get my mind off you, trying all my means and ways to concentrate. Looking back, feeling sad. Unsure of my future. What lies ahead seems like an eternity.
Labels: Sobering up
12:00:00 pm
Feeling hot, feeling really sleepy, getting a headache, head's feeling light headed. Staying sober was as hard as not loving you. The pain of the headache wasn't as bad as the pain that is lingering in my heart. lychee martini-
12:32:00 am
Wednesday, 9 April 2008
I'm reading it. Finally! If i remember correctly, when we got together, you told me that the book was really nice, and would lend it to me someday. After nearly 2 years, i'm actually reading it. Though i'm only quarter way through, i've got to say its really interesting, the way clare and henry actually cope and manage to maintain their love despite all the trouble and uncertainly that henry gave. Their will of loving each other is really strong. Guess ours wasn't that strong. not sure if it is from the start.( its just a figure of speech)
Hope you are really doing fine. No stress is just bullshit, just really hope you are coping with it. i thank god that you pass everyday through that stressful life. Though i'm sure you are enjoying it, one way or another.
This few days i've been missing you every night. Hopefully it'll fade so that it wouldn't hurt as much. But somehow some part of mind hopes that we get back together, i even dreamt about it. Could it be possible ? or is it just simply part of my wishful thinking. The dream was just a dream cause by long term of absent-ness. Missing makes the heart fonder, fondness makes the heart weary. But that isn't happening to me. WHY ?
-It still bleeds every night.
Labels: recollection of the past hurts. period..
11:37:00 pm
Wednesday, 2 April 2008
An open wound will heal if given some time. A tree will grow its leaves again after being cut off. The sun will rise everyday after it sets. But the pain in my heart hasn't changed one bit. Even i, aren't sure if it'll ever heal. Looking cheerful, feeling less painful only lasted for a moment. Every time i do something, i'll somehow remember those times we do those things together. Places i've gone, simply brings back memories. Even when i was at the bus stop outside my house. I would stop and mesmerized about all the event that happened. Nowadays, i don even dare to take the bus that goes pass your home. I'm afraid of seeing things, I'm just afraid i can't control and would stop and wait upon your return. Than i'll break down and not know what to do. It didn't matter if it was me who is in pain. Could someone just move on and enjoy happiness and not recall about memories of the past that made them happy and loved ? So painfully leave without giving a valid reason ? Did it hurt one bit, the fact that all this had to happen ? December and january wasn't that far apart to make things a great deal of difference. Perhaps it did, thats why things turn out the way they are now. But how ? How could it all happen without me realizing ? How could someone be so cruel. I've not done anything wrong, i don think we've drifted apart. I ain't sure if i made you sad or angry.For some people, love just lives on.
timrek-
Labels: Feeling worst than hell
10:03:00 pm
