Whenever I'm down, or barely could breath. I think of you. Somehow the thought of you simply brings me out of hell. You were the reason i look forward to the next day. A reason to believe that miracles do exist. Somehow i feel very happy when I'm with you. Not simply happiness from joy. But the happiness to know that we belong. That we were meant to be. When i'm upset you were there to show me the meaning of joy, when I'm frustrated you were there to teach me how to look at things differently. When I'm happy, you were there to share. You were my pillar of strength and joy and everything. Yes i might be exaggerating. But this isn't bullshit.I guess i was never your pillar of strength and hope or even joy. Cause you never did look for this pillar when you were down. You never did. I'm not saying you didn't want to. But you couldn't. Instead you looked for your best friend. Shouldn't i be your confidant instead ? The guy who shares your joys and endures your pain along with you ? Guess someone else did that for me instead. The guy who happened to be at the right place at the right time. While i'm like a stupid humpy dumpy sitting still on the fence waiting to know what is going on with you. Afraid to make a move, afraid that one wrong move might be the last move ever.
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My pillar has crumpled.
say I'm desperate, say i'm dumb, say i'm just a stupid guy hoping with no returns.
Please come back.
