I've been wondering if it was my fault that i didn't paid more attention to you. Didn't realized what was going on with you when you said, something is wrong, and that you'll only talk to me when its over. I didn't take the trouble to find out. I thought it was something that you'll need to spend more time working on, and not get distracted by other stuffs. I didn't think that it was something this major that leads you to such a trauma. Never did i thought that in such a short span of one month, compared to the 5 years that i've spent treasuring you. Could such a thing happened. Never knew that you could have a change of heart in such little time. Never knew the time you actually talked to me was the time when you said it's over. Never knew that i was the one who has to be the one who started to talk to you and get myself in such..... Never knew that i didn't mean as much to you as your best friend did, to have shared it with him instead of me. Never knew how we started off could have ended like this. Never knew that my life would be so different.
YES! shit happens, but this isn't how it was suppose to happen, this wasn't how it should have happened. this isn't exactly how i wanted it to happen. When shit happens, people don just choose the easier way out. People work harder to achieve and to get to what they believe in. Did you ? if you tell me, giving me up wasn't the easier way out. Are you lying to me or even yourself ?
I still believe in love. True love. those that no matter how they choose their path, will eventually believe that they are meant to be together. Time is killing me softly. 'Don leave me just yet.'
